For You, My Love

My love, I fear it's been too long,
Since last I spoke to you.
Alas, it is too late,
For your voice is forever silenced.

Never again can I talk to you,
Never again can I hope to hold you.
Never again can I hope to see you,
Never again will you breathe.

You are gone,
There's nothing I can do.
For so long I lived in denial,
Wishing it wasn't true.

But it is true,
And I can't help missing you.
So I'll keep writing this poem,
In honor of you.

I still feel at fault,
I should have been around.
I was such a fool back then,
Can you ever forgive me?

There's not a moment,
That I don't think of you.
There's not a moment,
That I don't miss you.

I wonder where you are,
And about how you're doing.
I hope you're okay,
You don't deserve to suffer.

I love you,
I always will.
I'll never forget you,
I'll keep you in my heart.

You were my beloved,
And I cherish the memories.
May you rest in peace,
And know how I feel.

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Wrote it in Law Studies yesterday instead of working on what I was supposed to do. God knows I hate that vile class and I'm sure the teacher knows too. It's going to be a looong year and I'd better pick up my grades. Blah.

This was written for a person who was very dear to me but committed suicide. He will forever remain in my heart and I hope he knows I'm finally happy again since I found my Adrael.

Danger Beneath the Waters

It waits ever so patiently,
Lurking in the waters deep.
Biding its time,
It gathers strength.

It dwells far beneath,
Down at the bottom of the waters.
Watching the world in hatred,
It longs for sweet revenge.

It wants to taint the world,
Create havoc.
It wants to destroy everything,
Wishing to get even.

Watch the waters,
Don't let your guard down.
Don't let it win,
Or darkness will coat the world.

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I felt compelled to write this in Psychology since we were still working on that damned take home test that the teacher forgot to give me.

I fear it is either a warning and/or prophecy. Beware and watch the waters, take heed to this poem.

Suffocation

My chest feels heavy,
My voice silent.
I feel suffocated,
And I don't know what to do.

I'm trying to hold on,
But my resolve is weakening.
These emotions are overcoming me,
And I try not to be swept away.

I feel sick to my stomach,
Disgusted by these mortals.
Can they not see?
They'll be their own downfall.

I can't help but pity them,
For I am caring.
I want to save them,
But I know it's all in vain.

No matter how hard I try,
They'll never listen to me.
They're too busy with their lives,
Too blind to see the truth.

So, I'll keep weeping,
Keep on trying.
I'll watch over them,
Hoping that they will see.

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Another one of the poems I wrote today. I was feeling a little sick to my stomach during class and my chest felt heavy. So, I wrote about my feelings.

I Want II

I want to dance in the rain,
Throw all my cares away.
I want to be soaked entirely,
To wash it all away.

I want to feel the wind,
Toying with my hair.
I want to close my eyes,
And feel alive.

I want to play with the stars,
And sing with the moon.
I want to fly with the dragons,
And run with the wolves.

I want to be free,
And be myself.
I want to stay with my beloved,
And never let him go.


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Another of the poems I wrote today. It's just another poem about things I want. :3

My Savior

Alone I wandered,
Lost in this world.
I felt incomplete,
And on my own.

Sorrow had a grasp on me,
Weighing heavily upon me.
I was losing my grace,
And my resolve.

For so long I suffered,
Trying to be strong.
Battling inner demons,
I feared defeat.

All along,
I was searching.
For the one to save me,
And make me whole.

For so long I searched,
Nearly losing hope.
Then I found you,
My light in the dark.

Oh, it was glorious,
How it all faded away.
Almost like it had never happened,
I was truly happy.

Though when I'm alone,
I feel the old pain creeping up.
Threatening to overcome me,
And so I think of you.

You are truly my everything,
My light in the dark.
My hero, my savior,
You are mine alone.

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Another one of the poems I wrote today. It's about how I was so lost and depressed before I found him, then when I met him again, everything just faded away.

I'll Love You Forever

I'm hoping to find you someday,
I'll keep searching.
I won't give up,
No matter what.

Trying to find the one,
To whom I can give my heart.
Though it may be broken,
Perhaps you can mend it.

Once I find you,
I'll never let you go.
I'll love you forever,
With all of my soul.

I'll devote myself,
To you entirely.
I'll be your everything,
If you'll be mine.

Our love is eternal,
It cannot die.
It will not dim,
Not even in the slightest.

Our bond is strong,
It cannot be severed.
No matter what,
We'll always be together.

Alas, I have found you,
My truly beloved.
Finally at last,
I am whole.

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One of the four poems I wrote in Psychology and lunch today at school. I was bored and feeling inspired. It's basically about how I was searching for someone and how I'll love them forever. <3

Mother Earth

Mother Earth is upset,
And I know it too well.
She's dying slowly,
But no one seems to care.

I can hear Her screams,
Can feel Her agony.
I can feel the earth beneath my feet groan,
Shuddering in unease.

I want to save Her,
Wrap my arms around Her.
Hold Her close,
And protect Her.

These mortals are so cruel,
Abusing and using Her.
She wasn't meant for this,
And so I weep.

Mankind will be their downfall,
I've said it all along.
I want to warn them,
But I know they won't heed me.

So, I'll do my best,
Sing to my heart's content.
Keep weeping silently,
And trying to save them.

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Just a poem I wrote about Mother Earth and how She's dying slowly and in so much agony, and hardly anyone cares. I've been wanting to write something like this for some time and I find it amusing that I could write it so easily in the morning, right before I head off to school. How lovely.

The Death of a Friend

So, yesterday, I lost a friend. I was quite upset but then I loathed myself for being unable to shed but about two tears for him. I mostly just dry cried. As in, cried but with no tears. Does it make sense? If it doesn't, then oh well. My friend was only nineteen years old and it's horrible that his life got cut so short. He died of a stomach cancer, I believe. I know he had that. And it drives me insane that I couldn't save him because I wanted so hard to save him. Right now, I'm fairly numb. I nearly started crying again last night when I went to sleep. It just... feels so unreal. Like all of this is a dream. I can only hope Father can forgive him, because my friend didn't believe in Him. My friend was a good person, from what I could see, and he doesn't deserve to suffer anymore. So, I hope Father forgave him and he's watching over us now. Anyways, rest in peace, Gareth Lowrie. May Father and the other angels look after you.

Of Dreams and Dragons VI

Of Dreams and Dragons

I sat with my back to a great ancient tree, on a hill that overlooked the great clear lake. I gazed down upon the pristine waters, a sad smile on my lips. I was to go to Earth. I didn’t want to go, for I was quite content spending my eternal days in Heaven. Father had a task for me and His servant and daughter, I had no choice but to obey. I didn’t want to leave Him, nor did I want to leave the company of my brothers and sister, Adrael, and my dragons. But alas, Sachael and Adrael had already been sent to Earth and now it was my time. At least, it drawing close and I couldn’t help but weep.


I could feel His comforting embrace as He murmured soothing things to me, assuring me that I would be fine. I would meet up with my beloved in time, just as I was to meet up with Sachael in due time. He also assured me that my dragons would be with me. They would be in a figurine, but still with me in order to protect me. I would miss flying and riding on the my dragons’ backs. I would miss singing in the Choir with the Choirmaster. But most of all, I would miss Father and Home. But someday, I would return and be free to spend the rest of my days with my beloved, my dragons, my friends, and my Father.


I felt a wetness on my cheek and lifted my finger to brush it from my cheek, only to realize that I had shed a tear. I tried to be strong, but alas, I wasn’t. I wept, not able to help myself and I felt a pressure against my side. I turned to see Le’neh, bumping his head gently against my side. “Don’t cry, little one,” He murmured, sounding like Ke’sarai by calling me little one. I sniffled and threw my arms around his neck, burying my face in his comforting scales. “I’ll miss you, Le’neh. I’ll miss it all.”


“I know, my dearest, I know,” He cooed, lifting a clawed hand to press it gently against my back, careful not to harm me. It was the best he could do in this form. “But I’ll be your side as soon as possible. We’ll all be by your side and you’ll meet up with Sachael and Adrael.”


“But what if I don’t?” I whispered softly, terrified of the thought of being in that strange world on my own. I heard him give a meek chuckle. “Don’t worry, Eliah. I’ll be here for you in time, I promise.”


I sniffled again and smiled, comforted by his words. I also began aware of Father’s presence again as He murmured soothing nothings to me, assuring me again that I would be all right. I really would miss Him, but I knew He would always be listening and watching over me.

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I was scared at first, but I knew I would be fine.

Of Dreams and Dragons V

Of Dreams and Dragons

I ran my fingers gently through his soft hair, humming softly as I gazed lovingly down at him. I had his head resting on my lap, nearly putting him to sleep with my actions as I basked in this wonderful moment. He had his eyes closed, arms resting over his stomach as his wings rested comfortably beneath him. My own draped down and brushed against the ground, paling in comparison to his beautiful ones but I didn’t mind. Not at all.


I adored spending time with him and I couldn’t help but smile more as I continued to gaze down at him, watching him as he slept. It seems I had actually put him to sleep. Ke’sarai was observing from the shadows as usual, while Nek and Resh were off spending time together once more. Le’neh was even spending some quality time with his own mate, who was named Kari'nakash'ar, but we called her Naka for short. So, it was still more or less like it was just Adrael and I.


I sighed softly in bliss, ceasing in humming in order to do so. I removed my fingers from his hair, gently moving a wisp of the soft locks from his face absently. It was peaceful around us and I loved it. I soon got lost in thought and didn’t realize when his eyes suddenly fluttered open and he smiled sleepily up at me. For some odd reason, I happened to look down and I snapped out of my thoughts at seeing he was awake. I smiled back and gently brushed a finger against his cheek fondly.


“Hello, sleepyhead,” I said, teasing him gently as I giggled softly. I was always laughing, since I really had no reason to be sad, at least not yet. It was rare that I got sad. He chuckled and raised a hand, brushing his fingers against my cheek and I sighed softly, leaning into his touch. “Hello,” He said at last, smiling gently up at me as he watched me in mild amusement.


“Did you sleep well?” I asked, wrapping my smaller hand around his larger hand, rubbing my thumb gently against his skin. “Of course. I always sleep easier when you’re around, my love.” At his words, I felt my heart skip a few beats and I smiled suddenly like a fool, unable to help myself. He was always amazing me. Suddenly a thought popped into my head, and I frowned slightly. Sensing something was wrong, he frowned as well and squeezed my hand gently. “What’s wrong, Eliah?”


“I was just thinking….” I murmured vaguely, lifting my gaze to stare up at the sky. Confused, he pushed himself up into a sitting position and turned to face me, never letting my hand go. “About what?” He pressed, gently trying to coax me into spilling my thoughts to him.


“It’s silly…. But….” I trailed off again, still being vague as I continued to stare up, not focusing my gaze on him. He blinked, more than confused now. He leaned forward, gently making me look at him. “But what?“ I smiled at him, unable to help myself as I giggled softly. “How about this. Let’s make a promise, Adrael!” He blinked, eyebrows knitting together in confusion. “A promise? What kind? I don’t understand.” I giggled at the confused look on his face. “If we ever go to Earth… and we’re separated, let’s make a promise. To find each other, no matter what. So, we can never be apart. Okay?” He stared at me for a long time before he smiled. “All right.” I smiled more, tilting my head. “So, it’s a promise?” He nodded and leaned closer. “It’s a promise.” And with that, he kissed me gently, sealing the deal.

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I really enjoyed writing this one. <3

Of Dreams and Dragons IV

Of Dreams and Dragons

I ran my fingertips across the glistening rainbow scales of the mighty dragon resting before me. My eyes lit up in fascination, a smile of awe ghosting across my lips. I always loved examining these beautiful scales and I couldn’t help but smile more at how the sun made them shine brilliantly. Although she was quiet and hidden most of the time, I thought Ke’sarai was so beautiful and amazing. She was truly unique. I mean, how many rainbow dragons were there? They had to be rare. At least, I was convinced they were. Made me feel so amazing to actually know one and have one look after me.


“Your scales are so magnificent, Ke!” I murmured softly, still running my fingers across the scales on her side as she lay curled up, watching me in silence. I heard her chuckle quietly and I flipped my gaze over in the direction of her head. It was rare to hear her chuckle or show much emotion, since she kept them guarded fiercely.


“Are you always so easily amused, little one?” She murmured, surprising me by speaking as she lifted her mighty head to tilt it ever so slightly to the side. She wasn’t mistaken in calling me a little one, for compared to her, I was quite small. Yet, I didn’t feel intimidated in the least. Ke’sarai would never wish me harm. After all, she was my guardian. I smiled innocently, raising a hand to tuck some hair behind one ear as I regarded her.


“I don’t know, you tell me, Ke,” I said back, giggling softly to myself as I teased her. I patted her side fondly and moved away as she chuckled softly once more. I spun in a circle as I moved away, careful not to lose my balance as I heaved a dreamy sigh. It was moments like these that I loved. Just peacefully spending the days with my dragons, especially her. I loved hearing her laughter, since I didn’t get to hear it often. And every time she spoke, I felt myself lean towards her out of instinct and listen intently to what ever it was that she had to say. She was a wise dragon and quite old and I respected her. I looked to her for guidance quite often.


“Little one, I can’t help but wonder why you always spend your free time with us dragons instead of with your own kind,” Ke’sarai murmured, shifting some to get into a more comfortable position as she regarded me. I blinked and then glanced over at her. I soon smiled and tucked some more hair behind one ear. “I don’t always spend my time with you all, I just chose to do so most of the time. I do spend time with Father quite often and with the other angels, such as with Sachael or Adrael. But sometimes, Ke, I love to come out into the areas where it’s less crowded and more peaceful. I just need to get away from everyone,” I said with a sweet smile, sighing dreamily once again. Ke’sarai seemed to accept this, for she laid her head back down and grew silent.


I laid down on the ground, spreading my arms and wings out as I heaved another sigh, closing my peaceful eyes as another smile ghosted across my lips. I really did love the peaceful times and detested the times of war. I hated violence, but sometimes, things couldn’t always be solved with words and song. Sometimes, you had to fight.

Of Dreams and Dragons III

Of Dreams and Dragons

I sat in a meadow next to a clear running stream, weaving flowers into crowns out of mere boredom. It may have seemed to be an extremely girly thing, but I was bored and had nothing else to do. Le’neh was taking another nap beside me, Ke’sarai was lurking in the shadows watching over me. Nek and Resh had gone off to spend more quality bonding time with each other. I was pretty much alone, at least, I thought I had been. I looked up at the sound of footsteps then beamed as a familiar face entered the area.


It was Sachael, a fellow Cherub like myself. She was basically my twin, since we were so alike. We have had the same element! I smiled brightly, waving her over as I sat among the field of flowers. “Hey, Sach! I thought you were spending time with Remiel?” I smiled, teasing gently. It was common knowledge that Sachael and Remiel were lovers, or maybe not? Who knew. I thought it was rather cute.


“I was, but he had to go do some… errands,” Sachael said, coming down to sit next to me. She heaved a sigh and picked at a blade of grass and I could tell something was bothering her. I frowned, leaning forward some and placing my flower crown on my lap. “What’s the matter, sis?” I blinked, tilting my head. Sachael looked up and laughed softly, shaking her head. “Always the blunt one, sis. I’m just worried about Remiel.”


“Why?” I blinked innocently, tilting my head to the other side as I eagerly awaited her reply. Sachael shook her head and stood, smiling down at me. “It’s nothing. I’ll catch you later, Elly!” And with a wave and smile, she was gone, leaving me to stare dumbly after her. She did that sometimes. Almost confess something to me and then suddenly change her mind and leave. But, I was used to it by now and so I merely shook my head.

I began weaving another flower crown and couldn’t help but wonder about what was plaguing Sach. But then again, was it really my business? I couldn’t help but be concerned, though. Though, if she wanted to, she would tell me in her own time. I couldn’t force it out of her.


I began humming as I weaved, every now and then glancing over at Le’neh to see if he was still asleep. I think he was catching Nek’s bad habits. With the sleeping a lot or maybe he’d been training too much and tiring himself out? I never knew with that unpredictable dragon of mine. I smiled fondly and hummed louder, moving silent to my own beat. I heard chuckling and I looked up to see Adrael standing before me. It was amazing how easily he could sneak up on me. I smiled, ceasing in humming.


“My, I seem to be having so many visitors today!” I said with a giggle, raising a hand to tuck some brown, silvery hair behind one ear.


“Really?” Adrael asked quietly, moving to sit down in front of me, wings twitching slightly as he peered curiously at me. I giggled and finished weaving the flower crown I had been working on. There were dozens around me that I had finished. “I was just kidding. My, you’re so serious!” I teased him, focusing my attention on him once again. I smiled suddenly in mischief, not even giving him time to question me before I leaned up and placed the flower crown upon his head and leaned back to study my work. “Lovely.” I giggled.


He blinked a few times before tilting his head up to try and look at the flower crown that I placed upon his head. I giggled, unable to help myself. “Careful or you’ll make it fall off!” He sighed and shook his head, raising a hand to adjust it because it was falling. “You sure are easy to make laugh, you know?” He couldn’t help but smile slightly, gazing at me fondly. I smiled back, but shyly. “Mmhm, I guess. I’ve been told that often!”


I suddenly stood up, startling him as flower crowns fell to the ground and I moved past him to twirl around in a circle, heaving a dreamy sigh. “Ah! I love being an angel! It’s so amazing!” I could feel his amused gaze focused on me, watching me as I acted silly. I kept twirling until I got dizzy and fell to the ground with a laugh, wings spreading wide. He chuckled and moved closer, unable to help himself. “You know, Adrael. I would hate being unable to fly. I think I would be miserable.” Adrael blinked and settled himself down next to me once more. “What if I was there? Would you still be miserable?” I blinked, glancing at him. I then smiled, giggling. “Well, if you were there, then I guess things would be better.” And I knew, that I would be happier if I had familiar faces around. Even if I was trapped in an alien world and unable to fly.


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Another story. These really do seems like memories with how easily they flow into writing for me.

Of Dreams and Dragons II

Of Dreams and Dragons

I spun ‘round and ‘round, humming a soothing melody as I did so. I was in a clearing in the middle of a forest, with Le’neh sleeping nearby and Ke’sarai lurking in the shadows somewhere nearby. Resh and Nek were off spending quality time together, which I of course didn’t mind. They were, after all, mated to each other. They deserved it after all the time they sacrificed watching over troublesome little me. I eventually grew too dizzy and collapsed to the soft grassy ground with a giggle. I panted, trying to catch my breath as the world seemed to spin for me.


Little had I known, that I had attracted the attention of another angel. As I lay smiling like a fool and catching my breath, he watched me from the shadows much like Ke normally did. Of course I didn’t realize he was there, because I was in my own little world and the dragons didn’t find him threatening, otherwise Ke’sarai would have alerted me to his presence. Instead, I think she was watching him in curiosity much like he was regarding me. I sat up once the world stopped spinning for me and giggled again to myself. I normally didn’t need the comfort of other angels, since I was able to amuse myself on my own or with my dragons.


I think, that a lot of the angels probably thought I was too childish, but I didn’t care. There was nothing wrong with acting like a child. Besides, sometimes acting all serious all of the time was overrated, right? I mean, what was the point in acting so serious all of the time? It was so much better to live life with happiness and adventure. I smiled to myself, lying back down on the ground, stretching my wings out with my arms. Le’neh seemed to be still asleep and I glanced in his direction. While looking at the slumbering blue dragon, I caught something out of the corner of my eye and sat up to try and see what it was.


I think he knew that he had been spotted, for he ducked behind the trees and I became fully aware of him. I smiled, unable to help myself and tilted my head to the side. “I know you’re there. You don’t need to hide, silly,” I called out to him, trying to coax him out of his hiding. I didn’t know why he was being so shy. There really was no reason.


I heard him sigh and he reluctantly stepped out from behind the trees and into the clearing, rubbing the back of his neck in a sheepish manner. He seemed at a loss of words, for he didn’t say anything. I peered at him in curiosity, studying him carefully. I couldn’t remember if I had ever seen him before, because he didn’t seem too familiar, but I think he was a cherub much like myself. So, I had to have seen him around somewhere, but I just couldn’t recall. I couldn’t help but smile at him and as if my smile was contagious, a small shy smile ghosted across his own lips as he regarded me.


“Hello there,” I said with a giggle, raising a hand to pluck some grass from my hair. When he didn’t respond, I tilted my head and frowned gently. “What’s the matter? Cat got your tongue?” I teased, trying to get him to loosen up. “Aw, don’t be shy. I’m Eliah. What’s your name?”


“…Adrael,” He said, speaking at last, sounding a little hesitant as he shifted almost uneasily on his feet. I couldn’t understand. Was I somehow making him uneasy? I normally didn’t have that effect on anyone. After all, I wasn’t intimidating in the least.


“Well, Adrael, it’s a pleasure to meet you,” I said with a smile and a giggle. I heard a yawn from nearby and I glanced over at Le’neh. The talking must have woken him up for he sat up with another yawn, blinking his eyes sleepily. I giggled, looking back to a suddenly nervous Adrael who had fixed his stare on the blue dragon. “That’s Le’neh. He’s one of my friends and guardians. Don’t worry, he doesn’t bite. Unless you try and hurt me.” I couldn’t help but giggle. When he didn’t laugh, I tilted my head and peered at him curiously.


“Why so serious? You’re almost as stiff as Nek!” I couldn’t help but smile, teasing him again to try and coax him into relaxing while in my presence. A look of confusion spread across his fair features and he couldn’t help but ask. “Nek?”


“Mmhm! Nek'ar'thri is his full name, but I call him Nek for short! He’s another one of my dragons. He’s always so stiff and serious. Always grumbling about something. It’s quite hilarious.” I giggled, unable to help myself again. I think I finally got to him, because Adrael finally let out a quiet chuckle.


“There’s also Ke’sarai! She’s around here somewhere, probably watching over us as we speak. There’s also Resh'anari. She’s Nek’s mate,” I said, pressing the tips of my fingers against each other as I talked. He stared at me for a long time before quietly beginning to laugh. I blinked innocently, tilting my head.


“What’s so funny?” I couldn’t help but ask, knowing a look of confusion had spread across my own fair features.


“You. You’re just so…. Cute and silly.” Adrael couldn’t help it and wiped the tears of mirth from his eyes. I smiled and began to laugh too. I knew we would be together forever.


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I think I'm going to make Of Dreams and Dragons a collection of short stories that are possibly memories of when I was back Home. I don't know why, but I feel compelled to write them down.

Musing

So, since I wrote that first short story just now, I am wanting to write more. I think I might make Of Dreams and Dragons maybe a collection of short stories that are possibly memories of stuff that happened back at home. I am not sure exactly, but who knows. Just wanted to jot this down.

Of Dreams and Dragons

Of Dreams and Dragons

I sat on a cliff that overlooked the great sea, sandal clad feet hanging over the rocky surface so that they dangled freely in the air. My body was tilted backwards, so that I was leaning with my arms spread wide, hands lifted to the sky in Song. A passing breeze swept by, ruffling the feathers of my wings and hair and I closed my eyes in bliss as I sang my heart out. It was a beautiful day and I often spent my time in this place when I wasn’t with Father and the others. I wasn’t alone and I shifted and turned to look behind me, pausing in song.

Lazily curled up behind me some few feet away with his great head resting on his front feet lay Nek'ar'thri or Nek as I liked to call him. I giggled and pulled my feet up so I could stand without falling and sneaked my way over to the slumbering dragon, trying not to wake him. I paused in front of him, grinning in mischief before breathing in deeply. “NEK! You lazy dragon, wake up!” I called, right in his ears. I then moved away when his eyes opened in surprise and he shot up, looking around in confusion. At his reaction, I busted out laughing and clutched at my sides, tears of mirth beginning to seep out of the corners of my eyes. When he realized it was me, he calmed down and snorted in mild annoyance.


“Eliah, what was that for? I was sleeping so peacefully,” The green dragon rumbled grumpily, sulking as he peered down at me. His tail twitched from side to side as he settled down, focusing his keen eyes upon my still laughing form.


“I’m sorry, Nek! I couldn’t resist! You really do sleep too much, you know!” I giggled, straightening and wiping the tears of laughter away.


“She does have a point, dearest,” A female dragon murmured, humor evident in her tone as she landed beside her mate. She leaned towards him, nuzzling her head under his in greeting before straightening to peer down at me. I brightened instantly and smiled. Her name was Resh'anari and she, like Nek, was one of my four dragon guardians. She was the third youngest while Nek was the second oldest. There was also Le’neh who was a playful blue dragon and Ke’sarai who was a brilliant rainbow dragon. Ke was the oldest and the wisest, though she didn’t talk much. She was always watching over me, though, even when I couldn’t see her.


“Hello, Resh! How are you?” I beamed, bouncing on my heels in excitement. Not only were these four dragons my guardians, but they were my dearest friends. They understood me perfectly and I loved them dearly.


“I’m good, dear. Are you staying out of trouble?” Resh murmured with a smile, bending down to tenderly brush her head against my outstretched hand. I giggled, unable to help myself. Resh was so motherly. I was so sure that she would be the perfect mother. Nek snorted, rolling his eyes. “Do you really need to ask that, love? She’s always getting into mischief.”


“Hey! Not always!” I protested meekly, placing my hands on my hips as I pouted up at the male green dragon. Resh chuckled, shaking her head at her mate and charge. Suddenly, I remembered something and looked around, eyes searching for someone.



“Hey, where’s Le’neh?” I murmured, pouting as I tried to locate him. He was almost always around me, since he and I had bonded the most. Not that I wasn’t close to all of my dragons, but he and I had connected the best. I was always flying and having fun with him. When I didn’t receive an answer, I looked over at Resh and Nek, who were looking up at something in the sky.


“Yo! Up here, Elly!” A playful voice called from above and I looked up to see the blue dragon flying around in the sky above. As usual, he was doing somersaults and such in the air, showing off like he loved to do. I couldn’t help but laugh, shaking my head at him. “Oh, Le’neh! You show off dragon you! Get your butt down here!” I couldn’t help but giggle some more, smiling in happiness. Although I couldn’t see her, I could sense that Ke was somewhere nearby as well, watching me from afar. She was kind of a loner, but I didn’t mind. I still loved her.


“What a show off,” I heard Nek grumble to Resh as I watched Le’neh grin and fly down to meet us. I couldn’t help but laugh and smile, knowing that I would be with them forever. Nothing could ever tear us apart.


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Just a short story I was compelled to write for some reason. Perhaps it is a memory of something that happened back at Home. Who knows.

Are You Blind?

I'm still so very lost,
In a world that doesn't care.
The angels are weeping,
And I'm crying along.

The world,
It cannot see.
The world,
It cannot know.

You're blind.
Unable to see.
See what you're doing,
What you're doing to yourself.

You're destroying yourself.
There's nothing I can do.
You refuse to let me help,
And so I merely weep.

I want to help,
I want to save you.
You ignore me,
You ignore my help.

I don't understand.
Are you that content?
To sit here and let this consume you?
Or are you blind?

Are you blind like the rest of the world?
Blind to all the pain?
Blind to all the suffering?
Blind to all the horror?

Let me open your eyes.
Let me help you spread your wings.
Help you soar above the clouds.
And sing among the stars.

Let me help you dance with the moon.
Let me help you paint the colors of the wind.
Let me help you smile and be happy.
Let me help you be free.

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Just a poem about the world and its inhabitants being blind to everything, more or less.

I Want

I want to fly,
On the back of a dragon.
I want to soar,
High above the clouds.

I want to sing,
Among the stars.
I want to dance,
Along with the moon.

I want to save,
So many people.
I want to open,
So many eyes.

I want to fight,
With all my might.
I want to be strong,
So that I am no doormat.

I want to cry,
But I cannot.
I want to be free,
But I am caged.

I want to be myself,
Just like others.

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Just a poem about what I want.

Like the Caged Bird

Trapped in this body,
Lost in this world.
I feel so out of place,
I want to go Home.

Like the caged bird,
I cannot soar.
So I stare up at the sky,
Filled with a great longing.

The world doesn't know
What I know.
The world doesn't understand
What I truly am.

I try to help them,
But they ignore me.
I try to warn them,
But they refuse to heed me.

Everyone is so blind,
They cannot see the signs.
They block everything out,
Trying to escape the truth.

I want to save them,
I want to help.
I try so hard,
But it's all in vain.

There's nothing I can do,
So I'll keep weeping.
I'll keep trying,
Even if they won't see.

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Just a poem about my feelings, more or less.

Greetings

Hello, my name is Eliah. I'm a cherub angel. I know, I know. You may think I'm crazy, but it's true. I'm what you call a reincarnated angel and I know I am not the only one of my kind. I did not realize what I was until somewhat recently when I became self aware thanks to a dear friend who is nearly my twin. I had always suspected that I was... different. I had always had the feeling that I did not belong. Even when among my family and friends, I felt uncomfortable. For a long time, I had been able to sense presences and then later come to realize that I had empathy. It's the ability to sense emotions, more or less. I could always guess my friend or family's feelings if I was real close to them, even if they were hiding it. I could also think of something right before someone would say it. I could also think of a song or commercial and five seconds later, it would come on the radio or tv. I was never really freaked out by it, I merely accepted it. I had also had this great passion for singing. I have always sang my heart out and I have been in chorus at school for a long time. It just sets me free. I had always had the strangest urge to fly. Also, I would stare up at the sky and unconsciously lift my hand to the sky, longing for something. I had also come to realize that I had this longing to go Home, even when I was at home. I also had this great compassion for every living thing. I wanted to wrap my arms around the world and keep it safe. Eventually, I came to suspect that I really was different. I thought at first I might be a Fallen, but it didn't seem right. A voice whispered, I cannot be Fallen. I have done nothing wrong. What could I have done? Then, I met Sachael. Again. She opened my eyes and helped me remember my name. With her and Father's help, I've come to realize what I am. My mission is to help my brothers and sisters awaken. Perhaps even to try and save everyone. Who knows. I'm not too sure myself. I've also come to realize that I have this great love for dragons. I had these four dragon statues, though one of them I got recently. I came to realize that they were my guardians. I have had a dream about one of them and I suspect I am closest to him. His name is Le'neh and he is a blue dragon. I believe he is the youngest and quite playful. I have dreamed of riding on his back several times. I have also dreamed of his mate, who is a red dragon but not my guardian. She looks exactly like him, but is of course red instead of blue like him. Her name is Kari'nakash'ar but we call her Naka for short. Then there is Resh'anari, who is the second youngest. We call her Resh for short. She's a green dragon and somewhat quiet. Her mate is named Nek'ar'thri and is also a guardian of mine. He's the second oldest and quite grumpy. We call him Nek for short and I have him watching over someone as well. Then there's last but not at all least, the mighty Ke'sarai, but we sometimes call her Ke for short. She's a stunning rainbow dragon and the oldest and strongest. Also the wisest. She doesn't talk much but she's always watching with her keen eyes. Well, that's pretty much all for now. If I think of anything else, I'll add it. If you have any questions, feel free to ask Sachael or myself. Farewell!