Prophecy, perhaps?

It waits in silence,

Cloaked in shadows.

It watches the world in hate,

Longing for sweet revenge.

It was exiled,

Banished by the angels.

Rightly so,

For it was evil.

It loves to cause fear,

Feeds on pain.

It bathes in blood,

Plotting the world's demise.

If not stopped,

The world shall be thrown into darkness.

Although it remains in hiding, 

It will reveal itself in time.

***** 

Perhaps another prophecy? Either of another evil or the same one that lurks beneath the waters. 

An Angel's Sorrow

I wait in silence,

Watching the world in sorrow.

I can barely contain my tears,

Feeling pity for these mortals.

I want to help them,

Want to save them.

Many are too blind to see,

Unaware of their impeding self-created doom.

They're too busy with their lives,

Unable to see what they're doing to themselves.

They've lost their path to light,

Most walking the path to darkness instead.

They need our help,

But some won't accept it.

We can't reveal ourselves,

Out of fear of causing chaos.

Mortals fear what they cannot understand,

And so we hide ourselves.

We'll keep on waiting and watching,

Helping those that we can.

Perhaps one day,

They'll open their eyes.

Hopefully they'll realize,

And return to Light.

For now I shall wait,

As I always do.

I'll keep weeping for them,

Help them when I can.

A Lullaby

Hush my little child,

Don't you be afraid.

I'll be here to protect you,

From everything you fear.

Now don't you cry my babe,

Just close your little eyes.

I'll be here beside you,

Guiding you to sweet dreams.

Don't you feel alone,

I'll always be here with you.

I'll be here for you,

Teaching you what I can.

Now don't you fret my sweet,

You are far too young.

I shall cradle you,

Hold you close to my heart.

Now go to sleep my child,

And may your dreams be pleasant.

I love you so much,

I'll always treasure you.

******

Just a lullaby that I wrote. It first started out as something I sang for my bird and it was only the first grouping of words. Then, I finally wrote the rest of it. I've found the melody for it and I hope to sing it to my child one day. 

Demonic Encounters

So, on Saturday, on the way back from the movies, my knee was hurting some. I was singing and then suddenly stopped and started to cry. I don't think my knee was hurting that bad to make me cry. I was feeling pretty weird and then figured something was up. So when I got home, I lingered on the porch, staring out into the forest. That's when I saw it. White and gleaming and it began to drive me crazy.

I knew something was evil nearby and it was bothering me. Alyssa, noticed me lingering and asked me if I was coming and I acted like I had simply zoned out, which was nothing new. So when I got in my room, I immediately went to my room. I had started shaking and breathing heavily at that point.

I think it was beginning to freak my friends out. I had two friends over since we went and seen Twilight. At this point, I realized something very evil outside and was messing with me. I knew I had to do something, or I would go crazy. I kept getting restless and nearly growling.

So, I texted Sachael, the only person I could think of to contact at that point. She told me I should do something about it but I had no clue how. I had never experienced something as evil as this... creature before. She gave me some words to say and I went outside and dealt with it. Of course, since I ran outside without a word, it kind of freaked my mom out. I wouldn't let her outside or tell her what was going on, other than there was something evil and I had to deal with it.

Eventually, I banished it and it went to Sachael. I also began to calm down and I kind of felt embarrassed that my friends had to see that. Then I had to explain to my mom what was going on, since she had thought I was on drugs. Yeah, what a lovely Saturday.

I wonder.

I'm beginning to realize, how misguided and lost these mortals really are. It's honestly quite sad and it makes me want to weep. I get fed up with them but then when I sit down and think, I can't help but feel bad. Sometimes, I feel really old and then I realize, how much older I am compared to these mortals. They're so young... so easily swayed and corrupted. It's truly sad. No matter how much we beg and we plead, no matter how much we bleed and try for them, it's sometimes just not good enough. They've truly lost their faith and have lost the path to light. The path to good. The path to Him, our Father.

I can only imagine how He feels. He must sit up in Home, watching over these mortals. I bet He can only shake His mighty head and want to weep at how truly misguided His children are. I can almost feel His sorrow and disappointment. I feel it too, Father. I really do. So, while You're weeping, I'll be weeping along with You.

What is wrong with humanity? I can only begin to wonder if we can truly save them. I feel the End drawing near and I want to curse at how we're running out of time. There's too many to save, too many eyes to open. Damn it, I just don't know what to do sometimes. I know that there are some that I cannot save and it makes me want to cry. It makes me want to scream, to throw, to bleed, to beg, and utterly sob and shout, 'why? Why can't I save them?'

And then I realize, Morningstar must be so smug. I know he's so bitter and full of hate, but I can't help but pity him. It was always my weakness to believe and see the best in someone. I'm far too caring and compassionate. How could I feel pity and other feelings towards this much older once brother? I know it's dangerous, but I cannot help but feel like this.

I'll cling to Father though and say prayers for these mortals. I'll try my damned hardest to save as many as I can. I'll comfort as many children as I can. I'll cradle as many babies as I can and sing to them. I'll try my hardest to lead this world back to light.

Mystical Night

The moon beams,
The starts twinkle.
The sun has fled,
Lighting the other side.

The day is gone,
The night is young.
Most mortals sleep,
Yet I am awake.

I love the night,
But fear what lurks.
I stare up at the moon,
I feel comforted.

I feel the courage,
I leave the safety of home.
I flee to the clearing,
Move my body to the lunar song.

I open my mouth,
Joining in the song.
I dance and sing,
Feeling truly at peace.

I close my eyes,
I fear nothing.
I feel the strength,
Coursing through my veins.

I hear voices join mine,
I can only smile.
My brothers and sisters,
They feel it too.

The night is mystical,
I bask in its glory.
I shall treasure the moment,
I will never forget.

Trapped as a mortal.

Alone I wander,
Lost in this world.
I feel so out of place,
I don't know what to do.

I'm trapped in this body,
Longing to go Home.
I want to be free,
Want to soar with my wings.

I'm tired of this world,
I feel so old.
I know I must stay,
For I have a job.

These mortals are so tiring,
But then they are so young.
They're so innocent,
So easily swayed and corrupted.

We must guide them,
Lead them to the light.
They have forgotten their meaning,
And lost their faith.

The End

Alas, I fear,
The End is near.
I can feel it creeping up,
And most are oblivious.

The mortal in me fears it,
Fears the End.
But yet I find,
That the angel in me somewhat longs for it.

Yet, there's so many to save,
So many eyes to open.
There's so many hearts to warm,
Too many children to cradle.

Most have lost faith,
And I can almost feel Father's disappointment.
Despite it all,
I know He loves them.

He loves them so,
Like He loves us.
All we can do,
Is try to guide them.

Try to lead them back to light.

Unlikely Events - Chapter Three

Unlikely Events


Chapter Three: Christmas Festivities and strange occurrences.

It was nearing close to Christmas and true to their word, Sach and Nem dragged me along to the Christmas Festival. I honestly didn’t mind, since I had never really been to a Christmas festival before. I had made sure to bring warm clothes, since it was a lot colder up there than it was down in Louisiana. I had my gloved hands tucked into the pockets of my jacket and I looked around in awe. It was nice, to be able to be around snow and then the colors from the festival were so pretty. There were supposed to be fireworks tonight and they had rides and games and all kinds of things. Just like a normal festival would.

I was dressed in warm jeans, warm socks, comfortable boots, a long sleeved shirt, a sweater, and then my jacket I had gotten several years ago during Thanksgiving one year. I also had gloves on and a black scarf around my neck. I glanced over at Sach and Nem, and started paying attention to their conversation. They were saying something about the fireworks tonight and I could only smile and shake my head at them. I was looking forward to seeing it.


All of the sudden, I felt something tugging on my jacket and so I looked down and then blinked in surprise. It was a little girl. She had black hair in pigtails and wise green eyes. She was dressed warmly, which I was relieved for. She stared at me for a long while before smiling at me.


“You’re a pretty angel,” She said, tilting her head innocently. I blinked, staring at her for a few moments in surprise. “Excuse me?” I heard myself ask. Surely this child didn’t know what I was. She giggled, tucking some of her bangs from her face. “You’re a pretty angel,” She repeated but before I could ask her about it, she turned on her heel and skipped back to her mother who had been about to panic when her daughter had vanished. I shook my head and looked at my two friends. Had they not noticed? They were still in conversation, so I merely shook my head. I turned away and pulled my phone from my pocket and checked the time. Just a few more moments before the fireworks were starting.


“I’m going to go grab something to eat. Do you guys want anything?” I asked, glancing at the two girls. They merely shook their heads but Sach caught my attention before I could go. “We’re going to snag a place to sit down and watch the fireworks. You’ll be able to see us, I’m sure.” I nodded and turned on my heel to go one of the food vendors. I murmured softly to the man, telling him what I wanted. I got a drink and a cheeseburger and I handed him my money in exchange for my food. I thanked the man and smiled before turning on my heel to head back. I spotted them instantly and beamed when I saw that they had picked a nice spot. It would have a perfect view.


“All right, I’m back!” I exclaimed with a grin and settled myself on the blankets spread out on the grass. Sach and Nem grinned at me. “Got yourself a cheeseburger? Nice choice, sister dearest,” Sach teased and I merely laughed. I started eating my cheeseburger and looked up at the sky. Right about when I had finished my drink and burger, the fireworks started and I stared up in awe. I could hear Sach and Nem murmuring to themselves, probably commenting on the fireworks. I wasn’t really listening, far too focused on the beautiful fireworks.


////


I was sitting on my bed back in the hotel room, flipping through a game magazine when I heard a knock on the door. I lazily got up and went to the door, peering out of the peep hole and saw no one. I blinked and opened the door, only to be greeted by a letter on the floor. Whoever had left it there must have dropped it there, knocked, then fled before I could get to the door. I shook my head and bent to pick up the sealed envelope and closed the door behind me, flicking the lock back into place. I examined the letter as I walked back to the bed. I frowned, finding nothing written on the envelope and sat down on the bed. I opened it up and pulled out a piece of paper. It was folded so I unfolded it and stared at what it said.


‘Beware, sweet cherub.’ That was all it said. No name, no explanation, nothing but those three words. What did it mean and how did this person know what I was? This didn’t make sense at all. I decided I would worry about in the morning, when I could actually show Sach about it. It was far too late in the night and I was getting tired. I put the magazine away and went off to change into some sleeping clothes before I crawled in bed and turned the lights off. Soon, sleep overcame me and I knew no more.


///


It was Christmas day and we were gathered around in Sach’s living room. There was Rem, Sach, Zad, Nem, and I. It was a small gathering but it was perfect in my eyes. I sat on the floor while the others sat in chairs or on the couch. There hadn’t been enough for me, but I didn’t mind. I eagerly focused my stare on Sach, watching as she opened the gift from me. It was nothing big, just something small, but it would allow us to be connected, so we would always know if the other was all right. Sach opened the gift and her eyes lit up in delight. Then she grinned at me, holding up the dragon necklace I had gotten her. It had a dragon curled around a cross, just like the tattoo I had gotten on my arm. I had bought a matching necklace and I pulled mine out from where it had been hidden beneath my shirt.


“I love it, Elly! Thanks!” She exclaimed and moved over to give me a hug. I laughed and hugged her back and watched as she pulled away. Even sitting down, with them, I still felt out of place. I really should have dragged Hailey along, but then I couldn’t tear her away from her family and Jack. So, I would sit here and manage on my own. I don’t think I’d ever fully feel at home, not until I went back Home. We stood up now, in a circle and held up a glass of wine and made a toast between all of us. “Merry Christmas!” We chorused and then took a sip. Yeah, what a merry Christmas indeed.

Unlikely Events - Chapter Two

Unlikely Events


Chapter Two: Feeling watched again.

I was in Indiana, visiting Sach and Adam. I had needed some alone time, so I had drove to the park. I sat on a bench, staring up at the sky. I was sitting there, doing that for about ten minutes, when I suddenly felt weird. Like I was being watched. It wasn’t something new, because I often felt watched, but this seemed.. Different. I tore my gaze from the sky and looked around. My dark brown eyes instantly found the source that was making me uneasy. It was a man, older than me, probably in his early twenties. I had to admit, he was quite attractive looking, but that wasn’t the point. He was staring at me, with piercing green eyes and a serious look on his face. He had black hair that was shaggy and some of his bangs were hanging in his pale face.


The word ‘demon’ popped into my head at once and I casually looked away and stood, stretching. I had to get away. He might have realized what I was. I was an angel, reincarnated into a mortal body. Demons and angels didn’t get along and I sensed danger, which was why I wanted to leave. I started making my way to my car and discreetly glancing over my shoulder. I cursed, seeing the man casually following after me, but not making it too obvious, well, to everyone other than me. I turned around and quickened my pace, fighting the urge to bolt to my car. This was bad. I got my phone out and texted the words, ‘Demon following me. At the park and about to leave.’ I sent the text to Sach, still making my way to the car. I glanced behind me again, seeing that the demon was still following me. My phone vibrated and I glanced down at it and sighed in relief. The words, ‘Get out of there. Start heading to my place. If the demon continues following you, give me a call,’ flashed across the screen, along with the name Sach. I continued to my car and hurriedly unlocked the door and closed the door behind me, locking the doors and glanced. The demon had stopped walking, casually watching me from behind shades he had recently put on. I shook my head and started my car and pulled out of the parking lot. I started heading back to Sachael’s place. I was staying in a hotel, even though Sach had insisted I could stay at her place, but I didn’t want to be a burden to her and Remiel. I was fine with staying in a hotel and I had brought enough cash.


After a few minutes of driving, I glanced in my rear view mirror and saw a car behind me. I thought nothing of it, but as I continued heading to Sachael’s place, making various turns here and there, that same car was following me. I swore under my breath, grabbing my phone with one hand and called Sach. She answered immediately, concern evident in her tone. “Is the demon following you, Elly?” I sighed, glancing in the rear view mirror and then focused on the road. “Yeah. He’s in a car now and won’t let up. I’m starting to get a little worried.” I had the impression that Sachael was frowning and I heard her mutter to someone about a demon and she mentioned my name as well. She must have been talking to Nem. Nem was in the town, visiting Sach as well. I had no idea where Rem was. She then focused her attention on me. “How far are you from my place, Eliah?” She asked, sounding serious and still concerned.


“Umm, not too far. I’ll be there soon.” I started to hang up, but Sach stopped me. “All right, we’ll be waiting outside. Just keeping driving straight to my house and if he follows you, we’ll know and deal with him. Be careful.” With that, she hung up. I sighed and closed my phone and continued driving. After what seemed like too long, I pulled up in front of Sach’s place, to see Nem and Sach waiting outside for me. The car that had followed me drove on ahead, and I got out in relief. I was instantly swarmed by the two worrying angels and I tried to assure them I was fine.


“Sach, Nem! I’m fine, really. He was mainly just creeping me out and being a stalker,” I said, trying to assure them that I really was all right. They fretted over me for a little longer before dragging me inside of the house.


////


We were sitting around in Sach’s living room, drinking. They were drinking alcohol, well, Sach was, while Nem and I were drinking soda. I had no idea where Rem was, in fact, I hadn’t seen much of him. Either he didn’t want to mess with us or was busy working. I didn’t mind. I sipped at my dr. pepper and focused my attention on the two girls. Just at the right moment, too, since Sach turned her head to focus on me. “Hey, Elly. You’re coming with us to the festival this weekend. Also… I got you something.” She pulled out a box, that she had been hiding behind her and handed it over to me.


I tilted my head and accepted the gift and with an encouraging look from both girls, I opened the box. I gasped at the sight. It was my El’enah. Sach had finally bought the sword that so closely resembled my sword back at Home. I bit my bottom lip, looking up at a grinning Sach. “Come on, unsheathe her. Careful, she’s sharp.” I beamed and gingerly picked up my precious sword and stood up, slowly unsheathing the sword. I marveled at its beauty and soon sheathed it, carefully placing it back in the box. I would certainly feel even more safer. I had already received that dragon pendant from Sach. The one with the hidden dagger in its tail, which I wore every day. Now that I had El’enah, physically with me, I felt a whole lot safer. I grinned back at Nem and Sach, focusing my attention on Sach. “Oh, thank you so much, Sach!” Sach merely waved my thanks off. “It was no problem, sis. I said I’d get that damn sword and I finally did.” Nem merely laughed and I laughed too.


“Now that you have your sword, you can take pictures with us and pose!” Nem teased, clapping me on the back. I merely laughed and nodded. “Yeah, and we can make people jealous with our sexiness!” Nem merely winked at me. “Like I said online that one time, we’re already made them jealous.” At that, all three of us laughed. Right about then, Rem just happened to walk in, looking grumpy and most likely just getting home from work. Sach hopped up and went over to greet him and Nem and I giggled and looked away. Yeah, spending the Christmas holidays up here was going to be fine. I had already forgotten my encounter with the demon.

Come To Me

Come to me,
I'll keep you safe.
Come to me,
I'll sing to you.

Come to me,
I'll keep you warm.
Come to me,
I'll dance with you.

Come to me,
Don't you fret.
I'll surround you with my love,
And keep you close.

Come to me,
Child, don't be afraid.
You have no need to fear,
You're safe.

Come to me,
We'll sing to the moon.
Come to me,
We'll dance with the stars.

Come to me.

Am I?

Am I strong
Or am I weak?
Am I brave
Or am I cowardly?

Am I beautiful
Or am I hideous?
Am I loved
Or despised?

Am I kind
Or am I cruel?
Am I honest
Or am I a liar?

Am I smart
Or am I stupid?
Am I happy
Or am I sad?

Am I quiet
Or am I loud?
Am I good
Or am I evil?

Halloween Poem

Come little child of light,
I'll show you the realm of shadows.
Don't be afraid,
Your fear will consume you.

It's all Hallow's Eve,
And the shadows thrive.
It's time for the light to flee,
For the dark shall rise.

Don't fret, though,
You're a special guest.
Let light meet dark,
And may they entwine.

Only once a year,
Does this happen.
Where the light meets the dark,
And the children of the dark are free.

Dear little child of light,
I am a child of dark.
Let me take your hand,
I'll show you my world.

It's not that bad,
Not as bright as your world.
Come with me,
I'll lead the way.

Child of light,
You are mine.
Forever we will be entwined,
I'll never let you go.

My Dragons

I see them in my dreams,
In all their splendid glory.
Their scales shine in the sun,
Smooth, but hard, to the touch.

I know them well,
As they know me too.
They are my friends,
Never possibly a foe.

They are my guardians,
Wise and strong in their own ways.
They've been here,
Always at my side.

I watch them spread their wings,
Breath catching in my throat.
I watch as they take flight,
Filled with a great awe.

I long to fly with them,
And I hear them calling me.
They beckon to me
And I give in.

They are my dragons,
My guardians.
I love them so,
And they love me.


******

Written for my scalies. <3 After all, dragons need love too!

I Wonder....

I sit upon the window seat,
Staring out the glass.
I'm thinking of you and wondering,
Do you think of me?

Does your heart race
As I enter the room?
Does your breath catch
When I look at you?

Do your knees buckle
As you watch me approach?
Do you almost melt
When I grace you with a smile?

Tell me, my love,
Does your heart sing?
Does it feel whole
When I'm around?

My dear, do you feel it,
The same as I do?
I pray you do;
It is glorious, my love.

********

Written with a certain person in mind. My friend Taryn was writing a poem in Chemistry and she showed it to me. I was so struck by her beautiful poetry, that I felt inspired. So, I wrote this and another poem. :]

Unlikely Events - Chapter One

Unlikely Events

Chapter One: Just a normal Friday.

I sighed quietly to myself, raising a gloved hand to rake it through my multicolored hair as I stared out the window. School was so boring, but I was glad that this was my last year. I was tuning out the teacher, but it wasn’t like he had anything really important to say. I sighed quietly again, and tore my gaze reluctantly from the window to glance over at the clock. I nearly sighed yet again, but it would have been in relief. Only one more minute. I glanced briefly at the teacher who had finally stopped talking and was sitting at his desk, before I glanced out the window again.


When the bell finally rang, it was to my greatest relief. I gathered my stuff and stood, slinging my back pack over my shoulder as I filed out of the classroom. Thankfully, that had been the last class of the day and so I made my way thankfully to my locker. After a few moments, I paused in front of it, entering the combination and swinging the locker open. I busied myself with switching my books and such and eventually closed my locker. I blinked when I saw a grinning Hailey standing right next to me. She must have somehow sneaked up on me while I was distracted. I couldn’t help but frown slightly, but nonetheless, I raised an eyebrow at her in questioning.


“Gabsis, do you know what today is?” She tilted her head at me, still grinning as she patiently waited for me to respond. I blinked slowly, trying to figure out what she was getting at. I then nearly slapped my forehead at my forgetfulness. Today was Friday, which meant the weekend was here.


“Yeah, it’s Friday. So..?” I murmured, shrugging and moved past her to begin walking, heading down the stairs. She shook her head and followed after me, still trying to get something across to me.


“It’s the weekend. We’ve got do something. I mean, we haven’t done anything together and had fun in like forever. By the way, are you all right?” She peered at me worriedly, careful not to trip down the stairs. I blinked, raising an eyebrow at her again.


“I’m fine, why? Oh and we could probably do something Saturday, I guess? Maybe go to the mall or see a movie, or both.” I shrugged and entered the hallway, heading to the door that lead outside. Hailey sighed, still trotting after me.


“Are you sure that you’re okay, Gabrielle? I mean, you’ve been acting a little different lately. Almost as if you were distracted or something was bothering you…” She frowned, worry showing clearly in her eyes as she peered at me. I blinked again, a little confused and surprised. Hailey hardly ever called me by my full name. It was normally ‘Gabs’ or ‘Gabsis’ or some other nickname she had for me. So, when she said my full name, I knew she was serious.


“Really? I hadn’t noticed. I’m fine, really. There’s no need to worry… though, I appreciate that you care. I don’t know what I would do without you, sis,” I said, finally smiling at her as we walked down the stairs. She couldn’t help but smile back, still not convinced I was okay, but she knew better than to press me for details. If something was bothering me and I didn’t want to talk about it, there was nothing anyone could do to get it out of me, unless I spilled on my own. I whipped out my cell phone, pressing the on button as I took the last step and then went through the doors, moving through the hall of the fourth building before exiting the building with Hailey.


“Hey, can I catch a ride with you today? Jack has classes right now and can't bring me home,” Hailey said, looking up from her own cell phone that she had checked, seeing if she had text messages. She had her license but no car. I nodded and dug around for my car keys before taking them out. I glanced at my phone and checked it and then smiled at the text flashing across the screen. It was from Alex, the silly boy. It read, ‘I love you, hun. <3’ I quickly texted a response and then tucked my phone away after closing it. My mother had eventually taught me to drive back in my junior year and I now had my license thanks to driver’s education.


Hailey followed after me, telling me about my day but I tuned her out without even realizing. Hailey was right. I had been distracted lately, but something was tugging at me, urging me to do something. What it wanted me to do, I wasn’t sure and it was making me uneasy. I shook my head and unlocked the car and Hailey and I got in. It was a black car, of course. Not a firebird, but it was still nice. I’d get my Firebird eventually. Hailey buckled in her seat belt and glanced at me while I did mine.


“Gabz, do you sense something wrong is going to happen? Is that why you’ve been so distracted?” She tried again, showing concern on her features. I sighed and started the car and pulled out of the senior parking lot. “I’m not quite sure, Hailers. It’s just… I’ve been feeling weird lately. I’m sure it’s just me not getting enough sleep or something.” Hailey’s expression lightened and she laughed. “Maybe if you didn’t spend so much time on the phone with Alex and on the computer, you’d get more sleep at night!” She teased and leaned forward in her seat to the turn on the radio, flipping to our favorite station. I merely shrugged in response and focused on driving, heading to her house.


“Tomorrow, we should go to the movies. How about that? Then later on, we can go to the mall. I have some extra cash to spend. Also, maybe you should spend the night. We could rent some more movies or something,” I said, flicking my gaze briefly to her. I then looked back to the road, tapping my black painted nails against the wheel of my chair as I waited for her response. She glanced at me, tilting her head before grinning at me. “That sounds like a plan, Gabz!” She exclaimed before falling silent as she focused on her cell phone. She must have gotten a text message.


It didn’t seem like too long before I finally pulled up in front of her house. She smiled at me, unbuckling the seatbelt. “Thanks for the ride, Gabz. I’ll call you or something tomorrow, so you know the plans are still on. See ya!” She said before opening the door and getting out, then closed it behind her and waved to me. I nodded and waved back, before pulling away and started heading home. I instantly realized that I missed her company and sighed, leaning over to turn the music up further. It was one of my favorite songs. Never Too Late by Three Days Grace. I started singing along, trying to distract myself from the bitter loneliness that was threatening to overcome me.


I kept singing along to the songs that would come on the radio, still trying to pass the 30 minute drive home. Eventually, I pulled into the driveway and parked the car next to mom’s. I shut it off and grabbed my backpack and got out of the car. I closed the door behind me, tucking my keys into my pocket, backpack slung over my shoulder. I lazily made my way up the stairs and then opened the door. As soon as I got in, that damned dog of my mother’s started barking at me and my mother came out of her room to see what the fuss was.


“Ah, you’re home. Did you have a good day?” She asked, crossing her arms over her chest as she watched me. I shrugged and moved past her, going to my room to drop of my bag in my room and then got to feeding my rabbit, bird, and turtles. “It was okay. I’m glad it’s over with. Is it okay if Hailey and I go to the movies and then the mall and then her spending the night? We’ll be quiet.” I paused, glancing at her once I was done feeding the animals. She shrugged and sat down on the couch, turning on the television set. “Sure, why not. I’m not paying.” I sighed and raked a hand through my hand, finally taking off my senior I.D. “’Kay. I’ll be in my room if you need me.” She nodded and I trudged back in to my room, closing the door behind me. I hopped down in my computer chair after turning the television in my room on. I turned my computer on and tapped my nails against the desk, waiting for the computer to load.


After a few moments, I typed in my password and then had to wait again for my computer to load again. I sighed and then signed on my instant messengers and checked my mail. Before I could continue, I felt my phone vibrating in my pocket. Thinking it was a text message, I didn’t grab it at first. But then when it kept vibrating, I realized someone was calling me. I dug it out and flipped it open, holding it to my ear. “Hello?”


“YO! It’s Sach!” I then smiled and laughed quietly. “I think I can recognize your voice, Sach. There’s no point in telling me who you are.” I heard her huff playfully from the other side of the phone. “Oh, Elly, be nice!” It wasn’t very often that Sach called, we mostly talked on the internet or texted. So, there must have been a reason she had called. “Is there something you needed?” I asked, arching an eyebrow. I heard her hesitate before answering. “Yeah, there is. Don’t you have a break coming up? Christmas break?” I nearly slapped myself in the forehead. Another thing I had forgotten. Christmas was coming up and so was my nineteenth birthday. “Yeah, I do. It’s not next week, but the next. Why?” I asked, puzzled.


“Oh, okay. Good. I was wondering if you think you could come up and visit. Also, it might give you a chance to visit Adra as well!” She said slyly, teasing me. I shook my head with a quiet chuckle. “I’ll see what I can do.” I could tell Sach was grinning from the other side of the phone. “Okay. Good. Just wanted to check.” I laughed quietly again. “Is that all you wanted?” I asked, turning in my chair to glance at the television absently. “Yeah. I’ll talk to you online. Bye!” Before I could say goodbye, she had already hung up. I shook my head and closed my phone, setting it on my computer desk. Yeah, what a lovely day.

For You, My Love

My love, I fear it's been too long,
Since last I spoke to you.
Alas, it is too late,
For your voice is forever silenced.

Never again can I talk to you,
Never again can I hope to hold you.
Never again can I hope to see you,
Never again will you breathe.

You are gone,
There's nothing I can do.
For so long I lived in denial,
Wishing it wasn't true.

But it is true,
And I can't help missing you.
So I'll keep writing this poem,
In honor of you.

I still feel at fault,
I should have been around.
I was such a fool back then,
Can you ever forgive me?

There's not a moment,
That I don't think of you.
There's not a moment,
That I don't miss you.

I wonder where you are,
And about how you're doing.
I hope you're okay,
You don't deserve to suffer.

I love you,
I always will.
I'll never forget you,
I'll keep you in my heart.

You were my beloved,
And I cherish the memories.
May you rest in peace,
And know how I feel.

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Wrote it in Law Studies yesterday instead of working on what I was supposed to do. God knows I hate that vile class and I'm sure the teacher knows too. It's going to be a looong year and I'd better pick up my grades. Blah.

This was written for a person who was very dear to me but committed suicide. He will forever remain in my heart and I hope he knows I'm finally happy again since I found my Adrael.

Danger Beneath the Waters

It waits ever so patiently,
Lurking in the waters deep.
Biding its time,
It gathers strength.

It dwells far beneath,
Down at the bottom of the waters.
Watching the world in hatred,
It longs for sweet revenge.

It wants to taint the world,
Create havoc.
It wants to destroy everything,
Wishing to get even.

Watch the waters,
Don't let your guard down.
Don't let it win,
Or darkness will coat the world.

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I felt compelled to write this in Psychology since we were still working on that damned take home test that the teacher forgot to give me.

I fear it is either a warning and/or prophecy. Beware and watch the waters, take heed to this poem.

Suffocation

My chest feels heavy,
My voice silent.
I feel suffocated,
And I don't know what to do.

I'm trying to hold on,
But my resolve is weakening.
These emotions are overcoming me,
And I try not to be swept away.

I feel sick to my stomach,
Disgusted by these mortals.
Can they not see?
They'll be their own downfall.

I can't help but pity them,
For I am caring.
I want to save them,
But I know it's all in vain.

No matter how hard I try,
They'll never listen to me.
They're too busy with their lives,
Too blind to see the truth.

So, I'll keep weeping,
Keep on trying.
I'll watch over them,
Hoping that they will see.

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Another one of the poems I wrote today. I was feeling a little sick to my stomach during class and my chest felt heavy. So, I wrote about my feelings.

I Want II

I want to dance in the rain,
Throw all my cares away.
I want to be soaked entirely,
To wash it all away.

I want to feel the wind,
Toying with my hair.
I want to close my eyes,
And feel alive.

I want to play with the stars,
And sing with the moon.
I want to fly with the dragons,
And run with the wolves.

I want to be free,
And be myself.
I want to stay with my beloved,
And never let him go.


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Another of the poems I wrote today. It's just another poem about things I want. :3

My Savior

Alone I wandered,
Lost in this world.
I felt incomplete,
And on my own.

Sorrow had a grasp on me,
Weighing heavily upon me.
I was losing my grace,
And my resolve.

For so long I suffered,
Trying to be strong.
Battling inner demons,
I feared defeat.

All along,
I was searching.
For the one to save me,
And make me whole.

For so long I searched,
Nearly losing hope.
Then I found you,
My light in the dark.

Oh, it was glorious,
How it all faded away.
Almost like it had never happened,
I was truly happy.

Though when I'm alone,
I feel the old pain creeping up.
Threatening to overcome me,
And so I think of you.

You are truly my everything,
My light in the dark.
My hero, my savior,
You are mine alone.

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Another one of the poems I wrote today. It's about how I was so lost and depressed before I found him, then when I met him again, everything just faded away.

I'll Love You Forever

I'm hoping to find you someday,
I'll keep searching.
I won't give up,
No matter what.

Trying to find the one,
To whom I can give my heart.
Though it may be broken,
Perhaps you can mend it.

Once I find you,
I'll never let you go.
I'll love you forever,
With all of my soul.

I'll devote myself,
To you entirely.
I'll be your everything,
If you'll be mine.

Our love is eternal,
It cannot die.
It will not dim,
Not even in the slightest.

Our bond is strong,
It cannot be severed.
No matter what,
We'll always be together.

Alas, I have found you,
My truly beloved.
Finally at last,
I am whole.

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One of the four poems I wrote in Psychology and lunch today at school. I was bored and feeling inspired. It's basically about how I was searching for someone and how I'll love them forever. <3

Mother Earth

Mother Earth is upset,
And I know it too well.
She's dying slowly,
But no one seems to care.

I can hear Her screams,
Can feel Her agony.
I can feel the earth beneath my feet groan,
Shuddering in unease.

I want to save Her,
Wrap my arms around Her.
Hold Her close,
And protect Her.

These mortals are so cruel,
Abusing and using Her.
She wasn't meant for this,
And so I weep.

Mankind will be their downfall,
I've said it all along.
I want to warn them,
But I know they won't heed me.

So, I'll do my best,
Sing to my heart's content.
Keep weeping silently,
And trying to save them.

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Just a poem I wrote about Mother Earth and how She's dying slowly and in so much agony, and hardly anyone cares. I've been wanting to write something like this for some time and I find it amusing that I could write it so easily in the morning, right before I head off to school. How lovely.

The Death of a Friend

So, yesterday, I lost a friend. I was quite upset but then I loathed myself for being unable to shed but about two tears for him. I mostly just dry cried. As in, cried but with no tears. Does it make sense? If it doesn't, then oh well. My friend was only nineteen years old and it's horrible that his life got cut so short. He died of a stomach cancer, I believe. I know he had that. And it drives me insane that I couldn't save him because I wanted so hard to save him. Right now, I'm fairly numb. I nearly started crying again last night when I went to sleep. It just... feels so unreal. Like all of this is a dream. I can only hope Father can forgive him, because my friend didn't believe in Him. My friend was a good person, from what I could see, and he doesn't deserve to suffer anymore. So, I hope Father forgave him and he's watching over us now. Anyways, rest in peace, Gareth Lowrie. May Father and the other angels look after you.

Of Dreams and Dragons VI

Of Dreams and Dragons

I sat with my back to a great ancient tree, on a hill that overlooked the great clear lake. I gazed down upon the pristine waters, a sad smile on my lips. I was to go to Earth. I didn’t want to go, for I was quite content spending my eternal days in Heaven. Father had a task for me and His servant and daughter, I had no choice but to obey. I didn’t want to leave Him, nor did I want to leave the company of my brothers and sister, Adrael, and my dragons. But alas, Sachael and Adrael had already been sent to Earth and now it was my time. At least, it drawing close and I couldn’t help but weep.


I could feel His comforting embrace as He murmured soothing things to me, assuring me that I would be fine. I would meet up with my beloved in time, just as I was to meet up with Sachael in due time. He also assured me that my dragons would be with me. They would be in a figurine, but still with me in order to protect me. I would miss flying and riding on the my dragons’ backs. I would miss singing in the Choir with the Choirmaster. But most of all, I would miss Father and Home. But someday, I would return and be free to spend the rest of my days with my beloved, my dragons, my friends, and my Father.


I felt a wetness on my cheek and lifted my finger to brush it from my cheek, only to realize that I had shed a tear. I tried to be strong, but alas, I wasn’t. I wept, not able to help myself and I felt a pressure against my side. I turned to see Le’neh, bumping his head gently against my side. “Don’t cry, little one,” He murmured, sounding like Ke’sarai by calling me little one. I sniffled and threw my arms around his neck, burying my face in his comforting scales. “I’ll miss you, Le’neh. I’ll miss it all.”


“I know, my dearest, I know,” He cooed, lifting a clawed hand to press it gently against my back, careful not to harm me. It was the best he could do in this form. “But I’ll be your side as soon as possible. We’ll all be by your side and you’ll meet up with Sachael and Adrael.”


“But what if I don’t?” I whispered softly, terrified of the thought of being in that strange world on my own. I heard him give a meek chuckle. “Don’t worry, Eliah. I’ll be here for you in time, I promise.”


I sniffled again and smiled, comforted by his words. I also began aware of Father’s presence again as He murmured soothing nothings to me, assuring me again that I would be all right. I really would miss Him, but I knew He would always be listening and watching over me.

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I was scared at first, but I knew I would be fine.

Of Dreams and Dragons V

Of Dreams and Dragons

I ran my fingers gently through his soft hair, humming softly as I gazed lovingly down at him. I had his head resting on my lap, nearly putting him to sleep with my actions as I basked in this wonderful moment. He had his eyes closed, arms resting over his stomach as his wings rested comfortably beneath him. My own draped down and brushed against the ground, paling in comparison to his beautiful ones but I didn’t mind. Not at all.


I adored spending time with him and I couldn’t help but smile more as I continued to gaze down at him, watching him as he slept. It seems I had actually put him to sleep. Ke’sarai was observing from the shadows as usual, while Nek and Resh were off spending time together once more. Le’neh was even spending some quality time with his own mate, who was named Kari'nakash'ar, but we called her Naka for short. So, it was still more or less like it was just Adrael and I.


I sighed softly in bliss, ceasing in humming in order to do so. I removed my fingers from his hair, gently moving a wisp of the soft locks from his face absently. It was peaceful around us and I loved it. I soon got lost in thought and didn’t realize when his eyes suddenly fluttered open and he smiled sleepily up at me. For some odd reason, I happened to look down and I snapped out of my thoughts at seeing he was awake. I smiled back and gently brushed a finger against his cheek fondly.


“Hello, sleepyhead,” I said, teasing him gently as I giggled softly. I was always laughing, since I really had no reason to be sad, at least not yet. It was rare that I got sad. He chuckled and raised a hand, brushing his fingers against my cheek and I sighed softly, leaning into his touch. “Hello,” He said at last, smiling gently up at me as he watched me in mild amusement.


“Did you sleep well?” I asked, wrapping my smaller hand around his larger hand, rubbing my thumb gently against his skin. “Of course. I always sleep easier when you’re around, my love.” At his words, I felt my heart skip a few beats and I smiled suddenly like a fool, unable to help myself. He was always amazing me. Suddenly a thought popped into my head, and I frowned slightly. Sensing something was wrong, he frowned as well and squeezed my hand gently. “What’s wrong, Eliah?”


“I was just thinking….” I murmured vaguely, lifting my gaze to stare up at the sky. Confused, he pushed himself up into a sitting position and turned to face me, never letting my hand go. “About what?” He pressed, gently trying to coax me into spilling my thoughts to him.


“It’s silly…. But….” I trailed off again, still being vague as I continued to stare up, not focusing my gaze on him. He blinked, more than confused now. He leaned forward, gently making me look at him. “But what?“ I smiled at him, unable to help myself as I giggled softly. “How about this. Let’s make a promise, Adrael!” He blinked, eyebrows knitting together in confusion. “A promise? What kind? I don’t understand.” I giggled at the confused look on his face. “If we ever go to Earth… and we’re separated, let’s make a promise. To find each other, no matter what. So, we can never be apart. Okay?” He stared at me for a long time before he smiled. “All right.” I smiled more, tilting my head. “So, it’s a promise?” He nodded and leaned closer. “It’s a promise.” And with that, he kissed me gently, sealing the deal.

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I really enjoyed writing this one. <3

Of Dreams and Dragons IV

Of Dreams and Dragons

I ran my fingertips across the glistening rainbow scales of the mighty dragon resting before me. My eyes lit up in fascination, a smile of awe ghosting across my lips. I always loved examining these beautiful scales and I couldn’t help but smile more at how the sun made them shine brilliantly. Although she was quiet and hidden most of the time, I thought Ke’sarai was so beautiful and amazing. She was truly unique. I mean, how many rainbow dragons were there? They had to be rare. At least, I was convinced they were. Made me feel so amazing to actually know one and have one look after me.


“Your scales are so magnificent, Ke!” I murmured softly, still running my fingers across the scales on her side as she lay curled up, watching me in silence. I heard her chuckle quietly and I flipped my gaze over in the direction of her head. It was rare to hear her chuckle or show much emotion, since she kept them guarded fiercely.


“Are you always so easily amused, little one?” She murmured, surprising me by speaking as she lifted her mighty head to tilt it ever so slightly to the side. She wasn’t mistaken in calling me a little one, for compared to her, I was quite small. Yet, I didn’t feel intimidated in the least. Ke’sarai would never wish me harm. After all, she was my guardian. I smiled innocently, raising a hand to tuck some hair behind one ear as I regarded her.


“I don’t know, you tell me, Ke,” I said back, giggling softly to myself as I teased her. I patted her side fondly and moved away as she chuckled softly once more. I spun in a circle as I moved away, careful not to lose my balance as I heaved a dreamy sigh. It was moments like these that I loved. Just peacefully spending the days with my dragons, especially her. I loved hearing her laughter, since I didn’t get to hear it often. And every time she spoke, I felt myself lean towards her out of instinct and listen intently to what ever it was that she had to say. She was a wise dragon and quite old and I respected her. I looked to her for guidance quite often.


“Little one, I can’t help but wonder why you always spend your free time with us dragons instead of with your own kind,” Ke’sarai murmured, shifting some to get into a more comfortable position as she regarded me. I blinked and then glanced over at her. I soon smiled and tucked some more hair behind one ear. “I don’t always spend my time with you all, I just chose to do so most of the time. I do spend time with Father quite often and with the other angels, such as with Sachael or Adrael. But sometimes, Ke, I love to come out into the areas where it’s less crowded and more peaceful. I just need to get away from everyone,” I said with a sweet smile, sighing dreamily once again. Ke’sarai seemed to accept this, for she laid her head back down and grew silent.


I laid down on the ground, spreading my arms and wings out as I heaved another sigh, closing my peaceful eyes as another smile ghosted across my lips. I really did love the peaceful times and detested the times of war. I hated violence, but sometimes, things couldn’t always be solved with words and song. Sometimes, you had to fight.

Of Dreams and Dragons III

Of Dreams and Dragons

I sat in a meadow next to a clear running stream, weaving flowers into crowns out of mere boredom. It may have seemed to be an extremely girly thing, but I was bored and had nothing else to do. Le’neh was taking another nap beside me, Ke’sarai was lurking in the shadows watching over me. Nek and Resh had gone off to spend more quality bonding time with each other. I was pretty much alone, at least, I thought I had been. I looked up at the sound of footsteps then beamed as a familiar face entered the area.


It was Sachael, a fellow Cherub like myself. She was basically my twin, since we were so alike. We have had the same element! I smiled brightly, waving her over as I sat among the field of flowers. “Hey, Sach! I thought you were spending time with Remiel?” I smiled, teasing gently. It was common knowledge that Sachael and Remiel were lovers, or maybe not? Who knew. I thought it was rather cute.


“I was, but he had to go do some… errands,” Sachael said, coming down to sit next to me. She heaved a sigh and picked at a blade of grass and I could tell something was bothering her. I frowned, leaning forward some and placing my flower crown on my lap. “What’s the matter, sis?” I blinked, tilting my head. Sachael looked up and laughed softly, shaking her head. “Always the blunt one, sis. I’m just worried about Remiel.”


“Why?” I blinked innocently, tilting my head to the other side as I eagerly awaited her reply. Sachael shook her head and stood, smiling down at me. “It’s nothing. I’ll catch you later, Elly!” And with a wave and smile, she was gone, leaving me to stare dumbly after her. She did that sometimes. Almost confess something to me and then suddenly change her mind and leave. But, I was used to it by now and so I merely shook my head.

I began weaving another flower crown and couldn’t help but wonder about what was plaguing Sach. But then again, was it really my business? I couldn’t help but be concerned, though. Though, if she wanted to, she would tell me in her own time. I couldn’t force it out of her.


I began humming as I weaved, every now and then glancing over at Le’neh to see if he was still asleep. I think he was catching Nek’s bad habits. With the sleeping a lot or maybe he’d been training too much and tiring himself out? I never knew with that unpredictable dragon of mine. I smiled fondly and hummed louder, moving silent to my own beat. I heard chuckling and I looked up to see Adrael standing before me. It was amazing how easily he could sneak up on me. I smiled, ceasing in humming.


“My, I seem to be having so many visitors today!” I said with a giggle, raising a hand to tuck some brown, silvery hair behind one ear.


“Really?” Adrael asked quietly, moving to sit down in front of me, wings twitching slightly as he peered curiously at me. I giggled and finished weaving the flower crown I had been working on. There were dozens around me that I had finished. “I was just kidding. My, you’re so serious!” I teased him, focusing my attention on him once again. I smiled suddenly in mischief, not even giving him time to question me before I leaned up and placed the flower crown upon his head and leaned back to study my work. “Lovely.” I giggled.


He blinked a few times before tilting his head up to try and look at the flower crown that I placed upon his head. I giggled, unable to help myself. “Careful or you’ll make it fall off!” He sighed and shook his head, raising a hand to adjust it because it was falling. “You sure are easy to make laugh, you know?” He couldn’t help but smile slightly, gazing at me fondly. I smiled back, but shyly. “Mmhm, I guess. I’ve been told that often!”


I suddenly stood up, startling him as flower crowns fell to the ground and I moved past him to twirl around in a circle, heaving a dreamy sigh. “Ah! I love being an angel! It’s so amazing!” I could feel his amused gaze focused on me, watching me as I acted silly. I kept twirling until I got dizzy and fell to the ground with a laugh, wings spreading wide. He chuckled and moved closer, unable to help himself. “You know, Adrael. I would hate being unable to fly. I think I would be miserable.” Adrael blinked and settled himself down next to me once more. “What if I was there? Would you still be miserable?” I blinked, glancing at him. I then smiled, giggling. “Well, if you were there, then I guess things would be better.” And I knew, that I would be happier if I had familiar faces around. Even if I was trapped in an alien world and unable to fly.


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Another story. These really do seems like memories with how easily they flow into writing for me.

Of Dreams and Dragons II

Of Dreams and Dragons

I spun ‘round and ‘round, humming a soothing melody as I did so. I was in a clearing in the middle of a forest, with Le’neh sleeping nearby and Ke’sarai lurking in the shadows somewhere nearby. Resh and Nek were off spending quality time together, which I of course didn’t mind. They were, after all, mated to each other. They deserved it after all the time they sacrificed watching over troublesome little me. I eventually grew too dizzy and collapsed to the soft grassy ground with a giggle. I panted, trying to catch my breath as the world seemed to spin for me.


Little had I known, that I had attracted the attention of another angel. As I lay smiling like a fool and catching my breath, he watched me from the shadows much like Ke normally did. Of course I didn’t realize he was there, because I was in my own little world and the dragons didn’t find him threatening, otherwise Ke’sarai would have alerted me to his presence. Instead, I think she was watching him in curiosity much like he was regarding me. I sat up once the world stopped spinning for me and giggled again to myself. I normally didn’t need the comfort of other angels, since I was able to amuse myself on my own or with my dragons.


I think, that a lot of the angels probably thought I was too childish, but I didn’t care. There was nothing wrong with acting like a child. Besides, sometimes acting all serious all of the time was overrated, right? I mean, what was the point in acting so serious all of the time? It was so much better to live life with happiness and adventure. I smiled to myself, lying back down on the ground, stretching my wings out with my arms. Le’neh seemed to be still asleep and I glanced in his direction. While looking at the slumbering blue dragon, I caught something out of the corner of my eye and sat up to try and see what it was.


I think he knew that he had been spotted, for he ducked behind the trees and I became fully aware of him. I smiled, unable to help myself and tilted my head to the side. “I know you’re there. You don’t need to hide, silly,” I called out to him, trying to coax him out of his hiding. I didn’t know why he was being so shy. There really was no reason.


I heard him sigh and he reluctantly stepped out from behind the trees and into the clearing, rubbing the back of his neck in a sheepish manner. He seemed at a loss of words, for he didn’t say anything. I peered at him in curiosity, studying him carefully. I couldn’t remember if I had ever seen him before, because he didn’t seem too familiar, but I think he was a cherub much like myself. So, I had to have seen him around somewhere, but I just couldn’t recall. I couldn’t help but smile at him and as if my smile was contagious, a small shy smile ghosted across his own lips as he regarded me.


“Hello there,” I said with a giggle, raising a hand to pluck some grass from my hair. When he didn’t respond, I tilted my head and frowned gently. “What’s the matter? Cat got your tongue?” I teased, trying to get him to loosen up. “Aw, don’t be shy. I’m Eliah. What’s your name?”


“…Adrael,” He said, speaking at last, sounding a little hesitant as he shifted almost uneasily on his feet. I couldn’t understand. Was I somehow making him uneasy? I normally didn’t have that effect on anyone. After all, I wasn’t intimidating in the least.


“Well, Adrael, it’s a pleasure to meet you,” I said with a smile and a giggle. I heard a yawn from nearby and I glanced over at Le’neh. The talking must have woken him up for he sat up with another yawn, blinking his eyes sleepily. I giggled, looking back to a suddenly nervous Adrael who had fixed his stare on the blue dragon. “That’s Le’neh. He’s one of my friends and guardians. Don’t worry, he doesn’t bite. Unless you try and hurt me.” I couldn’t help but giggle. When he didn’t laugh, I tilted my head and peered at him curiously.


“Why so serious? You’re almost as stiff as Nek!” I couldn’t help but smile, teasing him again to try and coax him into relaxing while in my presence. A look of confusion spread across his fair features and he couldn’t help but ask. “Nek?”


“Mmhm! Nek'ar'thri is his full name, but I call him Nek for short! He’s another one of my dragons. He’s always so stiff and serious. Always grumbling about something. It’s quite hilarious.” I giggled, unable to help myself again. I think I finally got to him, because Adrael finally let out a quiet chuckle.


“There’s also Ke’sarai! She’s around here somewhere, probably watching over us as we speak. There’s also Resh'anari. She’s Nek’s mate,” I said, pressing the tips of my fingers against each other as I talked. He stared at me for a long time before quietly beginning to laugh. I blinked innocently, tilting my head.


“What’s so funny?” I couldn’t help but ask, knowing a look of confusion had spread across my own fair features.


“You. You’re just so…. Cute and silly.” Adrael couldn’t help it and wiped the tears of mirth from his eyes. I smiled and began to laugh too. I knew we would be together forever.


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I think I'm going to make Of Dreams and Dragons a collection of short stories that are possibly memories of when I was back Home. I don't know why, but I feel compelled to write them down.

Musing

So, since I wrote that first short story just now, I am wanting to write more. I think I might make Of Dreams and Dragons maybe a collection of short stories that are possibly memories of stuff that happened back at home. I am not sure exactly, but who knows. Just wanted to jot this down.

Of Dreams and Dragons

Of Dreams and Dragons

I sat on a cliff that overlooked the great sea, sandal clad feet hanging over the rocky surface so that they dangled freely in the air. My body was tilted backwards, so that I was leaning with my arms spread wide, hands lifted to the sky in Song. A passing breeze swept by, ruffling the feathers of my wings and hair and I closed my eyes in bliss as I sang my heart out. It was a beautiful day and I often spent my time in this place when I wasn’t with Father and the others. I wasn’t alone and I shifted and turned to look behind me, pausing in song.

Lazily curled up behind me some few feet away with his great head resting on his front feet lay Nek'ar'thri or Nek as I liked to call him. I giggled and pulled my feet up so I could stand without falling and sneaked my way over to the slumbering dragon, trying not to wake him. I paused in front of him, grinning in mischief before breathing in deeply. “NEK! You lazy dragon, wake up!” I called, right in his ears. I then moved away when his eyes opened in surprise and he shot up, looking around in confusion. At his reaction, I busted out laughing and clutched at my sides, tears of mirth beginning to seep out of the corners of my eyes. When he realized it was me, he calmed down and snorted in mild annoyance.


“Eliah, what was that for? I was sleeping so peacefully,” The green dragon rumbled grumpily, sulking as he peered down at me. His tail twitched from side to side as he settled down, focusing his keen eyes upon my still laughing form.


“I’m sorry, Nek! I couldn’t resist! You really do sleep too much, you know!” I giggled, straightening and wiping the tears of laughter away.


“She does have a point, dearest,” A female dragon murmured, humor evident in her tone as she landed beside her mate. She leaned towards him, nuzzling her head under his in greeting before straightening to peer down at me. I brightened instantly and smiled. Her name was Resh'anari and she, like Nek, was one of my four dragon guardians. She was the third youngest while Nek was the second oldest. There was also Le’neh who was a playful blue dragon and Ke’sarai who was a brilliant rainbow dragon. Ke was the oldest and the wisest, though she didn’t talk much. She was always watching over me, though, even when I couldn’t see her.


“Hello, Resh! How are you?” I beamed, bouncing on my heels in excitement. Not only were these four dragons my guardians, but they were my dearest friends. They understood me perfectly and I loved them dearly.


“I’m good, dear. Are you staying out of trouble?” Resh murmured with a smile, bending down to tenderly brush her head against my outstretched hand. I giggled, unable to help myself. Resh was so motherly. I was so sure that she would be the perfect mother. Nek snorted, rolling his eyes. “Do you really need to ask that, love? She’s always getting into mischief.”


“Hey! Not always!” I protested meekly, placing my hands on my hips as I pouted up at the male green dragon. Resh chuckled, shaking her head at her mate and charge. Suddenly, I remembered something and looked around, eyes searching for someone.



“Hey, where’s Le’neh?” I murmured, pouting as I tried to locate him. He was almost always around me, since he and I had bonded the most. Not that I wasn’t close to all of my dragons, but he and I had connected the best. I was always flying and having fun with him. When I didn’t receive an answer, I looked over at Resh and Nek, who were looking up at something in the sky.


“Yo! Up here, Elly!” A playful voice called from above and I looked up to see the blue dragon flying around in the sky above. As usual, he was doing somersaults and such in the air, showing off like he loved to do. I couldn’t help but laugh, shaking my head at him. “Oh, Le’neh! You show off dragon you! Get your butt down here!” I couldn’t help but giggle some more, smiling in happiness. Although I couldn’t see her, I could sense that Ke was somewhere nearby as well, watching me from afar. She was kind of a loner, but I didn’t mind. I still loved her.


“What a show off,” I heard Nek grumble to Resh as I watched Le’neh grin and fly down to meet us. I couldn’t help but laugh and smile, knowing that I would be with them forever. Nothing could ever tear us apart.


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Just a short story I was compelled to write for some reason. Perhaps it is a memory of something that happened back at Home. Who knows.

Are You Blind?

I'm still so very lost,
In a world that doesn't care.
The angels are weeping,
And I'm crying along.

The world,
It cannot see.
The world,
It cannot know.

You're blind.
Unable to see.
See what you're doing,
What you're doing to yourself.

You're destroying yourself.
There's nothing I can do.
You refuse to let me help,
And so I merely weep.

I want to help,
I want to save you.
You ignore me,
You ignore my help.

I don't understand.
Are you that content?
To sit here and let this consume you?
Or are you blind?

Are you blind like the rest of the world?
Blind to all the pain?
Blind to all the suffering?
Blind to all the horror?

Let me open your eyes.
Let me help you spread your wings.
Help you soar above the clouds.
And sing among the stars.

Let me help you dance with the moon.
Let me help you paint the colors of the wind.
Let me help you smile and be happy.
Let me help you be free.

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Just a poem about the world and its inhabitants being blind to everything, more or less.

I Want

I want to fly,
On the back of a dragon.
I want to soar,
High above the clouds.

I want to sing,
Among the stars.
I want to dance,
Along with the moon.

I want to save,
So many people.
I want to open,
So many eyes.

I want to fight,
With all my might.
I want to be strong,
So that I am no doormat.

I want to cry,
But I cannot.
I want to be free,
But I am caged.

I want to be myself,
Just like others.

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Just a poem about what I want.

Like the Caged Bird

Trapped in this body,
Lost in this world.
I feel so out of place,
I want to go Home.

Like the caged bird,
I cannot soar.
So I stare up at the sky,
Filled with a great longing.

The world doesn't know
What I know.
The world doesn't understand
What I truly am.

I try to help them,
But they ignore me.
I try to warn them,
But they refuse to heed me.

Everyone is so blind,
They cannot see the signs.
They block everything out,
Trying to escape the truth.

I want to save them,
I want to help.
I try so hard,
But it's all in vain.

There's nothing I can do,
So I'll keep weeping.
I'll keep trying,
Even if they won't see.

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Just a poem about my feelings, more or less.

Greetings

Hello, my name is Eliah. I'm a cherub angel. I know, I know. You may think I'm crazy, but it's true. I'm what you call a reincarnated angel and I know I am not the only one of my kind. I did not realize what I was until somewhat recently when I became self aware thanks to a dear friend who is nearly my twin. I had always suspected that I was... different. I had always had the feeling that I did not belong. Even when among my family and friends, I felt uncomfortable. For a long time, I had been able to sense presences and then later come to realize that I had empathy. It's the ability to sense emotions, more or less. I could always guess my friend or family's feelings if I was real close to them, even if they were hiding it. I could also think of something right before someone would say it. I could also think of a song or commercial and five seconds later, it would come on the radio or tv. I was never really freaked out by it, I merely accepted it. I had also had this great passion for singing. I have always sang my heart out and I have been in chorus at school for a long time. It just sets me free. I had always had the strangest urge to fly. Also, I would stare up at the sky and unconsciously lift my hand to the sky, longing for something. I had also come to realize that I had this longing to go Home, even when I was at home. I also had this great compassion for every living thing. I wanted to wrap my arms around the world and keep it safe. Eventually, I came to suspect that I really was different. I thought at first I might be a Fallen, but it didn't seem right. A voice whispered, I cannot be Fallen. I have done nothing wrong. What could I have done? Then, I met Sachael. Again. She opened my eyes and helped me remember my name. With her and Father's help, I've come to realize what I am. My mission is to help my brothers and sisters awaken. Perhaps even to try and save everyone. Who knows. I'm not too sure myself. I've also come to realize that I have this great love for dragons. I had these four dragon statues, though one of them I got recently. I came to realize that they were my guardians. I have had a dream about one of them and I suspect I am closest to him. His name is Le'neh and he is a blue dragon. I believe he is the youngest and quite playful. I have dreamed of riding on his back several times. I have also dreamed of his mate, who is a red dragon but not my guardian. She looks exactly like him, but is of course red instead of blue like him. Her name is Kari'nakash'ar but we call her Naka for short. Then there is Resh'anari, who is the second youngest. We call her Resh for short. She's a green dragon and somewhat quiet. Her mate is named Nek'ar'thri and is also a guardian of mine. He's the second oldest and quite grumpy. We call him Nek for short and I have him watching over someone as well. Then there's last but not at all least, the mighty Ke'sarai, but we sometimes call her Ke for short. She's a stunning rainbow dragon and the oldest and strongest. Also the wisest. She doesn't talk much but she's always watching with her keen eyes. Well, that's pretty much all for now. If I think of anything else, I'll add it. If you have any questions, feel free to ask Sachael or myself. Farewell!